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[gitanes]

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[luckless]

[Everything was nice and soft, until that last line. Komaeda's smile dims on the other side of the screen, his good mood quickly soured, though he knows it's no fault of Lila's. She doesn't know. How could she? When they're together, they hardly talk about others—always stuck in their own little bubble.

So maybe it's odd that his next reply lags a few minutes, his words picked over carefully, because whatever he feels now is no fault of Atem.]

We're friends, that's all. I told him how I felt, but... I'm not sure if he believed me, or just doesn't want to be with me. I wouldn't blame him either way, before I disappeared... no, even before that, things have been weird between us.

Besides, he's dating Ryou-kun now. I don't think I should involve myself further... I'm happy just having these feelings. I'm happy to be his friend.

[But he knows what Lila will say. That he should take what he wants, that he should be selfish. But... he's just never been that sort of guy.]

[gitanes]

[She thinks about saying that. She does. It's just . . . well, she knows him too. She can't imagine him doing that, not when it's taken all this time to get him to actually believe she wants him. It ends up seeming like a lot of pushing and, thinking about it, she thinks it'd piss her off. If somebody told her to go for it after something like that . . .]

[She's confused. She doesn't understand what happened. But she can feel the hurt, too. So in the end, she doesn't insist.]

sorry. that sucks. i expected better from him.

[Which is true. She respects Atem a lot. She doesn't understand why he'd make a choice like that, but, well. Boys are dipshits mostly.]

if anything weird like that happens again, can you, i don't know, tell me? that sounds shitty and miserable and i don't want you to feel bad by yourself.

[She doesn't want him to feel like he has to be by himself, just because he's rejected.]

[luckless]

[It isn't the response he expects, but something else. He reads it, again and again—and each time he does, those words slowly fill him, until he no longer feels like he's sinking. Lila doesn't blame Atem, but she expresses her disappointment.

He didn't realize how much he would appreciate seeing that.]

I will... I promise.

[She doesn't want him to feel bad by himself. He smiles.]

You've changed, since I've been gone. You're somehow... softer. It's nice. I want to kiss you.

[gitanes]

[god. EMBARRASSING]

don't you dare tell anybody i'm soft. i'm fucking terrifying.

you can kiss me if you want, i'm, like, here. i live downstairs, komaeda. or does i want to kiss you mean i want to lowkey pine?

[She accepts even the latter because she is, disgracefully, kinda soft about him.]

[luckless]

I like pining for you, it makes the moment I get to finally see you again so much more interesting!

[But... she's right. He could just go downstairs and pull her wispiness into his arms and kiss the approximate location of her mouth.]

Do you want me to come over...? It's not too late, is it?

[gitanes]

komaeda.

i always want you to come over.

[luckless]

[Well, that answers that question. Komaeda looks down at himself—in just a long sleeved shirt and his boxers of course. Sighs. He rolls out of bed and slips on his jeans, appreciating the fact that he doesn't have a tail to maneuver in the whole ordeal.

His reply to her doesn't come, at least, not over the network. Instead it comes with a knock at her door a few minutes later. It's purely polite, and also because he still doesn't have a key to her apartment, but he stands there patiently.

If she wants this kiss, she has to come get it.]