dead_eyed_wolf: concern (⛈️ i'm awake)
Mukuro Ikusaba ([personal profile] dead_eyed_wolf) wrote in [personal profile] gitanes 2021-09-23 09:47 pm (UTC)

[Well. Lila's right about most of that. Mukuro's willing to hurt or die for the people who deserve it more if it's necessary. She just - needs to get better at figuring out when that is, and what her limits here are. She opens her mouth, but - that bit about trust issues, though, that makes her pause. Head tilting to one side, she blinks, considering, before she speaks again.]

...You're not - wrong. I don't really - I don't see myself like that. I don't care if I get hurt. I've been hurt - my whole life. I can handle it.
But - I know you do. You care, and it hurts you, and that's not - I won't just let that happen. The only reason I'm okay with getting hurt is to make sure nobody else is. It's - pointless, if it's not working.
And you're not - you're not the only one. Who cares. I don't understand it but I don't want to just - throw that away.
It's too important.

[Her voice is soft and stilted, trying so hard to really communicate rather than just try to assuage any anger and sweep it all under the rug. Lila's never ever lied to her, and Mukuro's never lied to Lila. She doesn't want to ruin that just because she's anxious.
Even if the next part is the most difficult.]


So I won't - I'm going to try to be - better. I've been trying.
...I might still mess up. I'm s-- ssstill trying to learn. And I understand if that's - if it's too much.

[Because Lila deserves better than a work in progress.]

But - I promise - I'm going to keep trying. And if there's something else bothering you, I want to know, or else I can't fix it.

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