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lila zacharov. ([personal profile] gitanes) wrote 2022-03-14 04:30 am (UTC)

reona ☛ nai nai ないない





nai nai ないない


a mere dark shadow without ash
a loveless individual, like a doll
a nonexistent 'self', nowhere to be found
i'm not, right?

ambiguous love, a colorless eye
nothing more than a mimicry of someone else's affairs
you have my thanks, but whoever could you be?
the answer comes in many forms

i remain as nobody
i remain unable to do anything
is it pointless to live this way?
is it wrong to?

what is missing, missing, missing here is
myself, myself
with nobody, nobody, nobody looking
sweep it all away, goodbye

unable to feel happy, unable to feel sad, my mood transparent
i lack even thе face to match my lacking self
not therе (not there) not there (not there)
there's no way i can laugh, right?

the "i" not made of ash is a closed shell
responding "aye", the expectations great
the die reluctantly thrown out
what number it rolled, i don't know

here
the person that wants to stay, to stay, to stay
is myself, myself
it's bitter, bitter, bitter
the taste of goodbye

i have nowhere to return to, like a lost child
make no mistake, i still don't understand
not there (not there) not there (not there)
but i don't care anymore

if i lost both shadow and form, it'd be better that way
and piece by piece from the ashes, start anew


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